PAIN

If I complain about pain after surgery someone please remind me of this post. lol

I AM IN PAIN! I don't say that to complain but I want to remember when I am free of all this extra weight of how much it HURT. My legs hurt, my knees and back are killing me right now. Even my elbow joints hurt. I wanna curl up in my bed and just sleep because moving around hurts so much! When I went to the Dr. he said the pain was caused by my weight so hopefully it will be better after  take off the weight. It hurts to walk around, going up stairs is nearly impossible, even going up a curb hurts my knees.

OK so I need to remember this if I complain that surgery hurts because that pain is temporary but the pain of being FAT is everyday. That's not even taking into account the emotional pain....people staring, not being able to do what others can do, not fitting into chairs, not being able to go on rides or sit in a booth....and on and on....OK point made? Being FAT HURTS!!!!

Obsessed?

Is everyone this obsessed when they decide to have weight loss surgery? It seems like that's all I can think about. I have been on twitter trying to find other people who have had or are going to have surgery. I also have been looking for books on amazon from people who have had the surgery. I would appreciate any advice from those who have been there about books or products they have found helpful.

otherwise....I did not walk this morning, I was so sore when I woke up but I will make myself go for a walk tonight. It's a little too hot right now in Florida to walk during the day...well, for me, right now. Can't wait to see how life changes

I have one good friend who has has a gastric bypass. Though she is a size 0 she still feels like a fat person sometimes, she forgets she no longer weighs nearly 300 pounds. She and I have talked a lot about addiction transfer and I know I need to be really careful about that. She went from being a food addict to being an alcoholic. The alcoholism has done as much damage to her body as the extra weight ever had. More about my friend later.... I am a food addict, and get addicted to things pretty quickly so I know that after surgery I need to be very careful what I allow myself to do. I have already quit smoking and will stay away from alcohol.

When?

So the big question right now is WHEN I will have the surgery. The doctor has ordered I lose 30 pounds before he will operate both to prove I am committed and the shrink my liver. This is going to be the quickest 30 pounds I have ever lost lol. I have cut out sugar and flour eating just (baked) meat and veggies, fruit, soy milk and Kashi "go lean" cereal.


ehhhhh I'm SO ANXIOUS!!! Back to scouring the internet!